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03/31/01 The Road To Nowhere Posted By Tillman
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03/29/01 Crispy Fan Mail Posted By Tillman From: Alicia Casantini To: Tillman Subject: Soul Is Mine
Im Sorry To SayFrom: Tillman@ForcedeXistence.com To: Alicia Casantini Subject: Re: Soul Is Mine
If you're a lame slut like "Stonergirl" that has to clamp on to someone in chat or AIM to whine and bitch about how much your life sucks to feel good about yourself, I'd just like to warn everyone that from now on I'm going to talk to you, teach you, explain to you how much you're not needed, and convince you to kill yourself for FX. So if you're not stable, or you know someone who isn't that likes emailing me, warn them.... They WILL DIE! Fuck! Why Be Normal? Posted By Tillman Fuck! I'm sick of fan mail too! I try an offer a web site that brings forth lifes sickness from day to day. Maybe not the total sickness all of you out there want to check out, but at least enough to make your average weird-o puke. I got so much email about how the vacuum sex pics made people take a look around..... Awesome! I'm willing to bet that if all of you head back into the FX Archives everyone of you will either find something you like, or perhaps confront a personal fear of your own! 03/26/01 While I was fucking around today I came across these little nuggets of entertainment. Usually I have some far out way to introduce shit I find on the net, but these pictures I just don't know. I'm sure the photographer was going for a certain audience, but I just haven't figured out who the hell would be turned on by these yet. If pregnant piss bondage turns you on, please head over to the message board and explain the whys' and what not. Vacuum Sex #6 Vacuum Sex #7 Vacuum Sex #8 Vacuum Sex #9 I've spent hour after hour looking for someone that is actually having sex with a vacuum cleaner. Finally I've found a few pics to share with you guys. You'd think that by me finding a few I'd be content, right? Well finding these has only made me want to find more. If you know of any other vacuum sex pics out there please send them to me, it would make my day or something........ One other thing, I was checking out the latest poll, and I couldn't stop laughing at the shit you people are writing in there. Fuck, I may leave that poll up for the rest of the year. Everything from killing my ass to me being spanked by a transvestite midget. Where do I sign up? If "it" would fit in a PO Box then someone mail me that mother fucker. 03/25/01 compliments on your site From: Tillman@ForcedeXistence.com Man, your site is cool and all that, but I have to ask, if you want to trade links why didn't you just link FX before you asked? Forever Pissed, Rant About It: Here See More Bullshit: Here From: Anonymous Hey Tillman! I really didn't expect you to come back so soon. You better not screw things up with your lady and all that other shit just to keep US happy! Ha ha ha ha! No shit I really am glad to hear about things going good for you and taking a break from the net for a while. March 1st I moved into a new place with one of my buddies. I had been living with my brother since OCT 26. The new place is a house with a basement and big yard. I get the biggest bedroom too. It even has asmall garage in the alley. My buddy's grandma died and we get to live her house. I have been feeling good since I moved. My rent is only $350 a month plus 1/3 of the phone bill. It is fucking cool. If shit don't work out here I can stil move back in with my bro and his roomie, too. March (XX) was my b-day, I turned 30. I had left the computer at my bros house and we just got a phone and hooked up my roomies WEBTV PLUS and I checked out ole FX to find out that you FUCKING QUIT!! So I heads over to the message board to see what kind of carnage there might be? Just LeafaRae saying thanks PERIOD! And Zilla saying have a nice day.. END OF STORY. What the fuck! I figure that they don't wanna drive you crazy or something. Maybe it was reverse psychology? Well I went to post and ended up trying to write a damn book about FX and how it helped me. Let me tell you Tillman, that post was a real piece of work it woulda made YOU cry. It takes a long time for me to write sometimes. I was sitting at my fucked up iMac typing for two hours and my computer froze. The post was lost and I was tired so I quit without leaving an FX epitath. I basically told how I felt about FX and how it changed me. I know you got one of my last messages about how it affected me and commented on it in an update, that was cool. If you want to post anything in this letter or the other one you can do it. I am mentally ill with bi-polar disorder or manic-depresson. I found FX during a very low point in my life. Fx gave me something to look forward to everyday. An update, a picture, a weird link, a much needed laugh,and thought provoking attitude all kept me coming back and gave me something to think and talk about.It does't seem like much now, but back then I had a hard time even going outside or even looking people in the eye. Soon I became interested in the message board and began reading it everyday. I liked it because it was funny. Fights were entertaining. People had a definite point of view and were telling others they're point of view and didn't give a shit what others thought about it.Some of it was some nasty serious shit. When I finally got the guts to post I was happy that I didn't get blown away. I was happy to have an audience for my rants. I was also happy to reply to the other sickos out there. FX became a hobby for me. It helped keep me sane during this fucked up winter and during my "homelessness" crises. It gave me a chance to vent where other places I couldn't. It showed me how people could be strong in the ace of adversity and stupidity. I saw people that took chances to get what they want out of life or just to get off on playing a sick joke. I learned that other people hate kids as much as I do.I discovered that the honesty and realness of some of the things at FX have changed me. (Well I was off on some ramble there, thats is kinda what the letter was like though anyway)The fucking point is that Im not the same anymore. Im more open- minded, self-aware, honest, confident, gross, mature, horny, perverted, humorous, and smart. You said that you needed to get away from the virtual world because your life was lacking in REAL experience, but FX and others have helped me to learn a lot of things I never woud have learned on my own during the past year. Welcome back 03/24/01 One final note.... It seems every time I link a site that's deemed half way "normal" by society, webmasters and or fans of the "offended site" always email me asking to have their link removed from FX. Talking about how FX turns out " the wrong crowd". In the past, I've respected this kind of request at least twice, not any more. If you don't want your nipple posted at FX, then keep that fucker covered up. If you don't want people to see your site then don't post it on the net. 03/20/01 I'd also like to say thanks to The K-Man and many others for bugging the complete total shit out of me to post another update. Over the last 12 days people have sent more links and shit then all of 6 months..... Nude pics, threats, invitations, almost whatever you can imagine has popped up in my email. And everyone was screaming "POST! POST! POST!" You crazy mother fuckers. It's been like a who's who in metal illness or some shit. I'm seeing my role in all this now as someone who is connecting the social defects together who have a history of disobeying what's considered normal thinking. Cool. Welcome home! Anyways, my life has pretty much been the same, without FX though I started lifting weights on a full time basis not unlike anyone locked up or confined into a small place where feelings of being hopless and anger breed. I bought a guitar that cost about as much as my computer. Ibanez Prestige. Oh man, it's a mother fucking race car and shit. I went to a few bars around town, wound up at a hotel bar with about 200 black people. (I was the only white dude there!) People were staring my ass down because I was sitting and talking with 6 beautiful black women. I had'em all in my pocket with my quick wit and charming smile. (LMAO Yeah dude, I was a player or something) Words like "pimp" and "white boy" were throw towards me over and over, and you guys should have seen the stares while I was out there tearing up the dance floor to Earth Wind And Fire! One of the chicks that was at the club was from India, although I tried to talk to her, there was a line from hell to just get close to her. It got me to thinking, I've never seen a nude Indian before, right? On a side note, I was dating a girl from India when I was 16, it took everything in me to get her to go out with me, right? Well, we had a few dates, and one night we double dated with Stevie Dee and his chick and well, after my many pleadings to fool around with Meena she finally came around. The fucked up part was I was on two hits of acid at the time. I can still see Stevie Dee going off on his chick in the back seat of my mom's Ford Escort, Meena looking at me and saying, "There's 2 dudes, and 2 girls". I was too high to understand at the time and she never went out with me again! So I've gone and collected some pictures to share with you guys in honer of Meena and that hot chick from the Holiday Inn bar. (or where ever the fuck I was) Official FX Psychiatrist I would like to get paid for jabbing number 2 pencils in peoples ears Killing Web Survery Writers The leader of a large Dominatrix group who over throws the government w/ large whips & over sized buttplugs...flaming dildos could also be a plus. A pop star evangelist... Replace Tillman as webmaster of FX!!!!!!!! making clothes out of human skin womens bicycle race official seat sniffer the evil tooth fearie, so l could come and rip out baby teeth of young children in there sleep and leave a bloody mess and the child screaming in pain testing medical marijuana i wanna be the life gaurd for the gene pool (My Favorite.. Of course) Be Tillman's personal dick sucker 03/08/01 I wish there were more hours in the day for me to take care of everything I need to take care of and still have time to fuck around with FX. But that's not how it worked out at all. In fact, the last 8 or 9 months I completely put my life on hold for FX, thus giving me a chance to convey my sickness to the world, which is a good thing, but on the other hand I'm not out there creating new life experiences. It's been fun, and I pretty much achieved the goals I set out to do. (Yeah, I was never really a big dreamer) but who knows, 6 months, a year or 2 down the road maybe I'll just start spewing again. But for now it's goodbye. Thanks to everyone who has helped make not only this past year, but the last 4 years a truly sick ride through the darkside of the internet. FX itself isn't going anywhere for now, but I'm out of here......
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Real fear is a hell of a thing. I miss being scared. Maybe it's just a lack of adventure in my life, but I can't remember the last time I was really scared. Sure, there's been some things that have made me a little tense now and then, but I'm talking about primal fucking fear. The kind of fear that makes you freeze, everything around you is ultra real, too freaked to scream out. Think about the last time you felt that way. Can you even remember the last time you felt that way? Nothing let's you know you're alive more than staring death in the face and walking away. If you're at all like me, it's been way too fucking long since you've crossed the line between living and being alive. 
That's right! It's time for more free Pee! I added over 65 new P pics today on the 
The world wide web. What a wonderful thing. For as little as $20 a month, anyone can be connected to the net and have access to spew their ideas, opinions, and yes, even nipple shots while breastfeeding their 4 year old. AcK! I can't help but to laugh out loud at 
In fact, I found it to be quite a disturbing site. For example, the picture to your left came with a caption stating "2 1/2 year old Emma being silly with her milkies!" If that isn't some of the sickest shit on the net, I don't know what is... It's sort of like the lesbian thing. We, being ever guy in the world, at one point has seen pictures or a video of a couple of lesbians messing around. The women are always so beautiful, but in the real world....... Just think about the women that you've met personally that are gay. (Can you smell Old Spice yet?) They're almost always so butch it's scary. Looking at breastfeeding tit pics is kind of the same thing. There's the chick, there's her tit, and yeah that's a nipple alright, but it's hard to look past what's actually going on. (If I'm making sense to one person right now, I'm impressed.) This Site Hosted By 
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