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12/03/00
I don't ask much from you guys, right? Click this link or
click that link every now and then, but other than that I just sit here hour after hour fucking around, doing my dirty little deeds without any reward. Today was no different, except I found something I want. Her name is Mistress Persephone. I don't care how you get her here, just deliver her to me unharmed and I'll say thanks and then kick you in the ass on the way out. You know what? Hell, I'd settle for a pair of her panties, a broken shoe, or even an autographed picture (showing her spider tat) of her made out to Tillman at FX. Someone out there can make this happen, I'm sure of it, please oh fucking please make my X-Mas 2000 one I'll never forget....
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It took so damn long to find these pics. You know how much porn I had to go through to find these? I swear my cock is typing this update right now I'm so god damn horny! What the hell am I talking about? Midget Sex Pics! *Fan-Fair* Yeah, well someone asked, so there you go. The chick in the first series is really hot. (For a midget) I like that spider tat on her belly. (See above) I really have never thought much about having sex with a midget, I've know a few people through out my life that were midgets and for the most part they have a really kick ass outlook on life. But hey, you just want to see'em fuck and suck so have at them.
Today's "Who is Tillman?" ..... When I was 18 I got to doing coke for a few days, I did atleast 2 eight balls... When it was all gone I laid down to try and chill out and I kept hearing this pounding sound right? I thought it was my heart, so I laid there for a long time saying good byes in my head while I held onto my chest knowing I was about to die. I started hearing people cheering and shit, for one for one second I thought I was already dead. I got out of bed and realized
it was just the high school band that was jamming out on Friday night about a half mile from my house.
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I wasn't too sure about Morbid Reign but the crisp,
clear and quite bloody entrance photo was enough to make me stop in. For
some reason, that poor kid makes me think of an open watermelon. Any FX fan
should take a look if only for the Death-O-Matic in which you choose the
category of pics you'd like to see, the background color you want and the
duration of time the shots should stay on your screen before reloading
something new and/or worse. Its like washing a really bizarre slideshow.
There aren't plenty of pics, but this is b/c the ones you do see are very
high quality, therefore intensifying the horror/enjoyement factor, depending
on who you are. Take a look at these and get back to me.
By the way, I chose to check out these sites by myself. I was not directed
to, as I can make decisions for myself. I like FX and I like posting here.
If you think I'm incapable of making such decisions, why not write to me?
Any relatives flying in for the holidays? You going anyplace? Plan on you
or them surviving the trip? Bet on it.
Am I Going Down calculates the chances of flights going oh so very
wrong. Choose your departure site, destination, airline, model of aircraft
and month of the flight, and get a look into your bleak, bleak future. In
the case that you do survive, but your plane is caught over enemy waters and
you are thrown into a foreign prison, impress the guards with your knowledge
of dictators such as their own. The Dictatorship
rates the aforementioned nutjobs on insanity, paranoia, corruption and
corpulence. This site proves what you've always known...role models blow!
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12/01/00
So why should you care about all this? Well, theirs is something in this year’s festival that I felt you would be interested in. Away from the competition rooms a little film is being screening, a film that comes with a little painting exposition. The film is called “Collectors.”
“Collectors” is a documental about the artwork of American serial killers and the people who collect this artwork. Now this starts sounding interesting doesn’t it? The exposition has artwork from John Wayne Gacy, Charles Manson, Richard Ramirez, Henry Lee Lucas, Otis Toole, Danny Rollins, Elmer Wayne Henley and Nicolas Claux.
There is not much to be said about the film, it’s definitely worth seeing, it shows how people got into this kind of collecting. It explains a lot about the “artists” and gives you the clues to look at the pictures. But it would be nothing without the exposition.
The exposition comes is separated by killers, and each area come with a original letter from the author. Some of the paintings are rubbish, and would worth nothing if it wasn’t because they’ve been done by serial killers (Charles Manson for example) but others are excellent (Henley, Claux) are excellent. You can have a look at the pictures and the movie in
Abjectfilms.com and you can even buy some, if you have $300 to spend this sound like a good way. Go check it out.
I’m sorry I couldn’t get pictures of the exposition for you, but if I can find my fake press ID before the week ends I’ll try to get you some.
Did you know…
When John W. Gacy made his “Hi Ho” Series of the seven dwarves Disney Banned him from using the name “Seven Dwarves” so the exposition had to be called “The Hi Ho series of Seven Little Men”
Otis Toole was a cannibal, but Henry Lee Lucas wasn’t. He said this was because “Otis BBK sauce was horrible”
Nicolas Claux, the Vampire of Paris, murder, cannibal, used to drink blood mixed with human ashes, is to be released from prison this year.
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I should have some time this weekend to post some shit I've been wanting to bitch about, plus Zilla sent me a few short stories you guys are going to fucking love! As a matter of fact Zilla should have his own little piece of FX here fairly soon! Today's "Who is Tillman?"...... I'm wondering who the hell reads these anymore?
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11/30/00
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Just wanted to say thanks. Thanks for not being as lazy and as unmotivated
as the rest of us downtrodden, weary, hateful souls. You are the voice on
the net we never had....the one they never wanted us to have.
Now, before you get me wrong, I'm not a pre-pubescent, angry and confused
kid. I'm a 29 year old male that slaves away to exist like everyone else. I
take my beatings from the man and the system he propetuates just to make
ends meet. He rapes my sorry ass with taxes and then laughs at me when I
want him to spend some of that surplus on me. So what I'm really saying
is....I'm just an average joe, with an average job....but my mind is still
free. Free to be filled with hatred and disgust for the fucks that use us as
fodder to feed their greed!!! I can't wait for the day that it all comes
around.....and we get to feed on their fat carcasses!!! oh, what sweet
revenge it will be.
Anyways, I just wanted to drop you a line to let you know there ARE a lot of
screaming tortured souls out there. And we are all enjoying the fact that we
have a voice.
Today's "Who is Tillman?"...... My favorite cerial is Cap'n Crunch.
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And what do I see a commercial for? Princess Bride Barbie. What the fuck?
I'll start out by saying I'm not a huge feminist. Meaning, I don't hate guys.
Some guys are rapists, molesters and murders, but women are far from sinless.
Some will slay their own children just as some men while sexual abuse their
own children. There's good and there's bad for each sex. But the marketing
world doesn't know what message it wants to send to girls. They'll mass
produce "Girl Power!" and "Girls Kick Butt" T-shirts, but then they have age
old icon Barbie seeming to live solely to get married. UGH!!!
Half the girls who play with Barbies don't even have typical families. They
know the reality of life. Why not appeal to them? How about Divorcee
Barbie©? She comes with half of Ken's shit including his genitals in a
plastic baggie (oh...so that's where it was...) and with a few of those bags
with dollar signs on the front like you see in cartoons. The purpose they
serve is to hold all the cash Barb got in the settlement, using the defense
that she 'got used to a certain lifestyle.' Son who starts to question his
sexuality without a father figure and daughter who gives blow jobs to the
football team to get back at daddy sold separately. Smack Addict Barbie©
comes complete with pipe and matches, a left eye that twitches uncontrollably
when you mist it with warm water, and a headband that conveniently turns into
a tourniquet for those craved injections. Prostitute Barbie© has her own
streetlamp to stand under and showcase the goods. Pimp Daddy Ken sold
separately.
I have my own theories about Barbie. She's got an amazing mansion, winter,
summer and vacation houses, a convoy of luxury cars and an ever growing
designer wardrobe. Yet, she never seems to work. How'd she do it? Simple.
Turncoat Barbie© wears a designer trench coat and her own pair of huge black
Jackie O style sunglasses. Watch as she sells American nuclear secrets to the
Commies and the Japs. Room full of paper shredders and state of the art
fingerprint erasing solution sold separately.
If all this hasn't been tripped out enough for you, then stop by
Crack
Aficionado.
The online mag has profiles of
celeb addicts like Robert Downey Jr. and Marion Barry ('the man who brought
crack from the back alley to the front office") along with plenty of helpful
features: "Turn Your Crack House into a Crack Home", crack ratings, plus a
database of dealers. Its only a joke, people. Or maybe that's just the
paranoia talking.
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11/29/00
I check out your page about three times a week and I just thought I would tell you that I have linked to it through my site. My little shithole on the web has not been up long but what the hell maybe you will get a hit or two out of it. I checked out his page and was blown away by the amount of links Bill has on religion. Over 40 working links to almost any kind of God/religion out there! Very nice site for just popping up! I'm sure it'll grow to be a sick monster. I have to tell you Bill, I was happy you used a banner (I guess) to link FX, however I was wanting to read a "one liner" from you describing FX. Anyways dude, thanks! I got mail from the owner of the site I called "Bullshit" too. I was going to respond to him by just telling him to ignore me because I'm a prick, but maybe you guys will see the humor I found reading this while surfing his page. You guys know me, I wasn't trashing him, my point was.... There's dancing chickens on his main page! Read his wisdom and know that yes, I suck...
dear sir/madam
so you dindin`t like my site >?
thats alright i dont like yours either,but saying it is bullshit is a little
bit childish isin`t it?
remember im just a 17 years guy who makes a site pure for the joy of making
it and sharing it with people who do like the content.
now maybe im not orignal, but i do have some rare things posted on my site
and i do not ad any comercial links and / or banners
you see your site is full of links to other sites and most of them suck
like the porn sites,(you enter 1700 pop up vensters open)
other than some text and a lame layout you`ve posted nothing than links to
other sites now what orignal about that??
so please dont bother me anymore,
I link to sites I like, examples would be KTC, Mayhem, or Touture, he thinks they suck? I guess nothing tops a cheap ass wav file of Barney with chickens dancing? I could also point out that the porn links here are to free porn with the exception of Horror Sex. Maybe he was pissed there was no fake Britney Spears nudes here for him to steal? I won't say any of that, what's the point? I can tell he's the type of dude who wouldn't let shit be, he'd have to have the last word no matter how wrong he may be... Hence, my only comment would have to be on his closing statement, "Please don't bother me anymore"! Who emailed who? I read this next email from Rotton Candy and thought, "Wow, what I was hoping for... someone else see's it!" Meaning offering different points of view. How different could you get between a 30 y/o drunk death metal freak and a 15 y/o Catholic School Girl? It's like a sick, fucked up episode of Ren and Stimpy!
Tillman: FX is awesome, but you probably know that. I liked when those other
guyz like Morbid and Larafae [?] did updates, but the ones by evil are
really good, i don't know, she just has stuff to say and you two seem to
kind of balance each other out. Does that make sense? She seems cool. Keep
up the good work and tell her hi because i don't have the courage to mail
her yet.
Rotton Candy thanks for the props man, and thanks for re-enforcing to me that people out there like change every now and then. I feel lucky as hell that there are a few people out there that even consider posting their kick ass writings here at FX. See guys, people read your stuff and they love you! FX is ours, it isn't just mine. And Rotton Candy, I can't promise EvilAmbrosia will dig you, but I know she'd love to hear from you. Today's Who is Tillman? .... I served jury duty once, the case involved 130 pounds of pot being shipped via FedX. When it was time for us to make a decision, no one wanted to be foreman, so I spoke up and said I'd do it. Everyone fell silent, and then someone said, "okay". I tried to help the dude by offering doubt but they was dead set on giving him the max. The weirdest thing was when they rolled all the dope into the court room, left it right in front of the jury box. I sat there for three days jones'n my ass off!
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Finally a particular fan emails the Bagg stronghold with a forwarded mail from a band called Pike 27. In the mail they claim to be opening for Bagg on Saturday at Sudsys. Thats how we find out were playing the show. Tits never called back. So, Saturday rolls around and we get to the show where tits assured us "Free food and dinner." Free food and dinner = 2 drink tickets and no dinner. We drink on empty stomachs and get shitfaced. We blame tits. We go on about 11:00 and play til midnite. A good show at a legendary local music bar that just started hosting bands again after some fire code type repairs were made. We sell out of cds because we never bring enough and all is well. Then tits climbs on stage to give away an "Acoustic Launchpad." One of those silly acoustic guitar, pics, strings, strap, how to play video, and stringwinder all in one box things. We have a rather overzealous fan named Ward who felt he should win the "Acoustic Launchpad." He didn't. He reacted violently to his loss. He yelled "show me you tits!!!!" at tits, than he threw a full bottle of Corona on the floor and it shattered. It like blew up. Loud ass sound of glass breaking, beer goes everywhere. The room goes quiet. Tits is on stage scared for her life. If we hadn't lost already, that sealed our fate. Tits was scared of drunk Bagg fans. The soundguy wins the guitar. This further upsets ward, cuz "he's an employee, he can't win." The last band plays, we go home and sleep.
The award ceremony rolls around. Me and the electric guitar player go cuz The Weekly is too cheap to give the whole band tickets. And they cost $20. Too expensive for my blood. I see tits at the ceremony and she smiles and gets this look of "Oh.....it's them." on her face. We go take our seats, right behind the band that wins. The great Mojo Nixon comes out to give out our award. Bagg getting an award from Mojo Nixon would have ruled. Mojo knows who we are and I'm sure it pained to give out the award elsewhere. I'm sure Mr. Nixon supports heavy metal hillbillies, even if noone else does. The other band, Promenade, won. We had big smiles and "Dude, congrats" type shit going on than we left. Promenade is a Brit-pop type band. Not my kinda thing, but they are pretty nice dudes. We left and went up the hill to the Mad Frog, our home base bar. We saw the booking guy and told him we loss. He's like..."What??!! That's not fair!" Not Fair? Does he know something we don't? He says he doesn't and said "It's not fair in a cosmos kinda way, the earth may fall off it's axis after such an injustice." Dude really digs us. We decided it's better to rule in the smoky bar at midnite with all your buds than rule in a pussy theatre with a bunch of foo foo types that never saw Bagg anyhow. I wanted to wave the idiot rock flag high, but it just wasn't meant to be. There are rumors of it being fixed. In ads for the showcase in the weekly rag, They had pictures of Bagg and Promenade. Bagg had a 1 x 2' pic. Promenade had a 5 x 6'. It's pretty clear who they wanted to win. Whateva. Promenade were pretty cool so hopefully we'll play some future shows with 'em. Also, Bagg just signed with a local label. Northern Aggression Records. They're gonna help pay for the next cd and shit. cool. Thanks for all your guys help. I'm not sure it was a completely honest contest, but we tried.
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11/28/00
Going through your normal day becomes monumental. Taking that turn in the
hallway when you know your going to meet up with your unnoticed nemesis is a
paused moment in time. For a moment, the world flashes red. Your mind
becomes the dark tool you always knew it was. Suddenly, you are throwing a
punch that knocks the caps right off an abnormally symmetrical smile.
Tangling your fingers in hair to smash a head into your kneecap and hearing a
jaw break. Coating a prone body with gasoline to set it alight. Choking
someone to death with their own belt.
Forget church and absolution. Rage is the great soul cleanser. Those who
think they are the best of the best come to turn with the fact that they are
just as animalistic as any scum. You might never give in to your violent
fantasies, but they can come to be close friends. Sometimes, they're all you
have.
Unlike Tillman, not all of us can have our own pet spider. Some things may
stand in your way, i.e. a significant other or relative with arachnophobia, a
dog that will eat anything, or a fear that the poor little critter may wander
into the crawlspace and nestle within one of the still warm corpses. And hey.
Admit it. You a) spend a hell of a lot of time on the computer and b) don't
have anything too interesting on it. So skip the potential dangers of both
venomous bites and perpetual boredom and instead download the creepily
realistic interactive tarantula at
Virtual Venom. Decide between a Chilean Rose or
Mexican Red Knee and watch as Legs becomes sad, angry, thirsty and hungry.
And if your truly neglectful and heartless ::cough:: Tillman ::cough:: watch
the little guy roll over and pass onto the other side. At least there's
nothing to flush.
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My night got worse from there, but what's the point of going through every detail? So, here I sit where I swore and even promised I wouldn't be sitting, doing exactly what I shouldn't be doing. You'd think if this was where I was supposed to be someone or something would give me a sign. Instead I log on and get an email from someone asking me if FX is a illegal web site? *Sigh* Today's "Who is Tillman?".... I used to live next door to this blind black dude from NC or SC, I seen him walking home one night and offered him a ride, he agreed. We got to talking and smoking some weed and come to find out he loved to play chess as much as myself. I never beat him one time! I didn't have to call moves or nothing, he'd just "feel" the board and was able to kick my ass over and over. Come to find out later he was the 1980 something or another chess champion from NC (or SC)! I can't even remember his name...
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